Day 1

My starting weight is 257. I should weigh around 130-150 for my height. So I'm going to set a short term goal. It is February 10th. By the end of February in 2 and a half weeks. I want to weigh 250. I think this is a good starter goal. Don't want to go too crazy. If I lose more, then I lose more and good for me :)
I also have some anxiety issues that have been worse recently. I have a thyroid imbalance due to me being overweight, which my Dr said should right itself with weight loss since I am still young.


If you're like me and think negative thoughts and let your mind dwell on bad things and the "what ifs" then I would suggest humming a little tune. Humming is a very good breathing exercise that most people don't think about. Mine is very simple. It's just: Think Positive, Relax and Breathe! hummed to a little tune I made up. I hum it and think the words with it and I feel better :) I am also going to be painting little "decorative signs" with those words on them to put around my house. That way, no matter where I go, I see those words and remember them.

I am also a perfectionist. I need to remember that no one is perfect including myself. Everything I do should be seen as an accomplishment and not nit picked over about what I could have done better.

I will keep these things in mind today and reread over them if necessary. Weight and anxiety will not own me. I will own them.

Hello Everyone

Hello to anyone reading this blog. I created this blog as an archive, essentially for myself, but maybe I can inspire or help someone else. I have recently had a... how do I say this... awakening? I've realized that I need more to life than sitting around all day playing video games. Video games are an excellent hobby, but they do not need to be my life. I need to do something productive. Even if it's just rediscovering my love of art and painting. The job market is still not good, so that is not an option right now.

I also have quite a huge chunk of weight to lose. So here is where I will be documenting my weight loss. I will begin exercising and eating healthier. This alone, I believe will help me feel better as a person. It will solve some health issues and make me feel better at the same time. So I invite you to share my trials and errors... and laugh and cry with me :)